Reminisce...

I've bee sitting here since about 12:30 this afternoon listening to Yahoo Music's 90's R&B station... just thinking about how corny I really was in high school. I listen to some of the things that I used to bump all the time and I'm just like... damn, I liked that shit huh?

Stuff like Tamia's "I'm So Into You" and H-Town's "Knockin Da Boots"... "I Wanna Sex U Up" by Color Me Badd and "I Like" by Kut Klose... "All Season" by LeVert and "My My My" by Johnny Gill... let's not forget "He's Mine" by Mokenstef, "Stroke U Up" by Changing Faces, and "It Never Rains In Southern California" by none other than Tony Toni Tone... I'm so ashamed...

But, I've been sitting here for 5 hours damn near jamming and singing.... boy I'll tell you... as corny as it was, I loved it all...

I'll See You When I Get There....



Lucille Williams
January 4, 1920-April 7, 2005

If anyone is wondering who that lady is in the photo, it's my grandma. She passed on Thursday morning peacefully in her sleep at the age of 85.

I am the youngest of 8 grandchildren. I have 2 older brothers and 5 cousins that are all older than me. There are 14 great-grandchildren. Yeah, 14.

She leaves her daughter, my mother, Ruby. She also leaves her daughter, my aunt, Jalois. My grandfather died on my 14th bithday (August 5, 1989), and her son, my uncle Richard, died when I was 19 (November, 1994).

Ever since she passed away, my family has been on some straight up and down BULLSHIT. All about who's gonna get what and how much money was in the bank and all that shit. Can this shit wait? My grammy is GONE and all ya'll vultures can think about is what you can get out of it. Mourn damnit, GRIEVE a little bit, shit. It pisses me off to no end. These bastards were asking for shit before the funeral even took place. I never thought it would be like that, but I guess I should have known. I know this though... if one more muthafucka come over here or call asking for another muthafucklin thing I'm gonna fuckin SNAP! Let my mother handle this shit without you buggin here. She just lost her MOTHER out here.

Not to meantion my brother, the thief that he is... under the guise of helping my mom clean out the room, he's simply helping himself to anything he can sell to get drunk or high or whatever it is he does to get retarded. Stealing from my grammy... STEALING from the only person who bent over backwards for your dumb ass at any given moment. Would do anything for him, and he goes and disrespects her like that. I don't understand. It's like when Big Momma died in Soul Food... the family is about to fall apart... and at this point, with the way these bastards are acting, I wouldn't even care....