Monday, October 30

Didn't I Tell You, It's ALWAYS Something...

So how about this...

As much BULLSHIT I have floating around me at the present, there's ONE MORE THING to add to the mix...

Drumroll please....

How about there's a 99.9% chance that your girl may be having a fucking BABY?

A baby? WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?!?!?!

Aw man....

I can't even type right now... I'll blog later...

Sunday, October 29

Video Of The Day

Jagged Edge - Gotta Be

I love this song too... such a pretty love song... another one dedicated to RBG II

It's ALWAYS Something...

Remember LeDon?

Yeah, the convict that I had been dealing with for about a year?

How about he's basically BEGGING to get back into my good graces? If you recall how this all began, I was already a little skeptical, but fell face first into the shit anyway... I was all in, on some straight Asha Bandele stand by my convicted felon shit... even to the point where niggas got tattooed...

Then, not once, but TWICE, this negro backed away from me, cause he felt some type of connection with this heiffer that was supposed to be his giorlfriend when he got locked up... now, from what I could see, this girl was anything but his girlfriend... see, I was the girl his momma liked... I was the girl that took his daughter under ther wing and attempted to help his mother raise her... I was the one that stepped in and made shit happen for him while this bitch was out here lying to everybody and fucking anything with a dick while he's locked up for the next 4 years...

But she found out about me and wanted to have an attitude... so she sweet talks him into some shit, still lying to his momma and his daughter about what she's gonna do for him and for them... I mean, the bitch is so self absorbed it's ridiculous...

For example, Keyshauna asked for a turtle for her birthday in 2005... her birthday is in May, so at this time I wasn't involved... but she was, and promised this child she would get her whatever she wanted... not only did Keyshauna never get the turt;e, but whatever else this "woman" promised her never happened. This bitch CONSTANTLY lies to this little girl... and lies to his mother, lies to his sisters AND lies to him...

But that's the bitch you want, right?

Anywho, after the last time, I was truly DONE with him and his bullshit... exactly how do you play the pimp shit from behind some bars? I mean really? Here, read the letter I typed up and sent to his ass to let him know I was done...

Hey you...

I’m typing this letter because I have a lot to say and I type a whole lot faster than I write. I’m gonna tell you right now, if you didn’t like the letter with all the questions, you are definitely not gonna like this one. I have a bit of an attitude right now. I’m probably about to piss you off. No, I’m going to piss you off. However, what needs to be said needs to be said. You have your warning.

I never said that you were lying when you said that you loved me the way that you say you do. I believe that. What I asked was how can you love me like that and not want to take it any further than friends? You still never answered that, but at this point, it doesn’t really matter. You made your position clear, and what you want is what you want. There is nothing I can do about that.

You want us to be friends? Okay, friends it is. But understand that the things I do and the way I treat YOU is some girlfriend shit, not best friend shit. Don’t get it twisted, I do what I do for you and for your family because I want to, not because I feel like I’m obligated to. I also know that you appreciate all that I’ve done. But I really want you to understand my position. Not only can I back my feelings up to keep it on a friendship level, I’m going to. But know that when my feelings back up, so do a lot of other things. Yeah, we do have something special, that is undeniable, but since I have to back it up, I will. And you’ll notice. It’s not what you want for now, it’s what you want period.

I already know what the deal is. Monique is back in the picture. And that’s fine. If that’s who you want to be with, then do that, who am I to stop you? If that’s really where your heart is, I can’t fuck with that. I’m not saying that you don’t feel anything for me, because I know you do, but don’t feed me the rest of this madness just to keep me on your team. The sideline ho that always got your back. That’s exactly what you’re doing. You know, I saw it, but I was trying to give you the benefit of the doubt. You can deny it all you like, but know I’m not stupid, and I’m also not blind. And I’m not going for it.

And I didn’t put you in category with all these other niggas, cause everybody is an individual. What I said is true, that you pulled the same “Let’s just be friends” shit that they all pull. Trying your best to play two ends against the middle. Not to worry though, that’s fine. I’m really not even mad about it.

You can be mad. You can send me all my letters and my pictures back too if that’s how you feel. I’m not getting the block off the phone, cause I hear that you can call Monique now. You don’t really need to talk to me, right? My number is about to change anyway. The cell phone number is different now too. And I’ll give all of your mail that you sent to me, the food box forms, the form needed to bring KeKe and Devon, and the rest of the stuff from the clothes box I have to your mom. Tell wifey she needs to get that form notarized so you can see your daughter and your brother. Since we’re just “friends” and all, you don’t really need to see me either, right? With that said, feel free to take me off your visiting list. You don’t even have to write me back if you don’t want to. It doesn’t even matter to me anymore.

You know, I really thought I had a lot to say. I guess I don’t. Be good, stay safe, keep it together in there, Boo. I’ll holla at you.

P.S: I just want to let you know, that our relationship has nothing to do with the relationship that I have with your daughter. Please don’t try to come between that, because that will only hurt her. You don’t really want to do that do you?


My best friend thought it should have been alot meaner, but I said what I had to say and that was really that... And I wanna let ya'll know I got 6 letters in response to that. 6 of them... all on some "I don't want her, I want you" type shit... I got calls from his mother laughin cause he's calling her beggin her to call me, cause I wouldn't give him my new address or phone number (all the letters he mailed, I got them, because when I moved, I put in a change of address form with USPS)...

So, about a week ago, I give the nigga my phone number, just cause I need some closure... once I talk to him, I'm putting a collect call block on my shit so whatever. I might even change the damn number... anyways, he calls, and we talk... I'm point blank with it like "You want that girl, you can have her, you ain't gotta worry about me, sweets, cause I'm good. All the shit I did for you, all the shit I turned down for YOU, I'm cool."
Of course I got the usual "But I Love YOU!" shit... whatever... I'm not even about to deal with this shit...

Too bad we can't be like this anymore... cause those arms felt so safe...

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Friday, October 27

Video Of The Day

The Roots feat Erykah Badu - You Got Me

I love this here song....

The RBG Files- Part 1

Aight... I know you're all probably tired as hell of me talking about this man, but I need a little assistance in deciphering the meaning behind things...

Some things have taken place in the last 3 days, and I don't want to read the shit wrong, in case I'm on some old hopeful romantic shit and not seeing what it is for real. So ya'll help me, k?

First thing, more often than not, I hear the word "WE" come out of his mouth.. and not on some "We need to go get some food" or "We were sitting here listening to some music"... No... the "WE" I keep hearing is on some "If we had a house together..." or "If we were married..." or "When we have a kid..." Now, maybe it's just me, cause it could very well just be me, but that sounds a little... attached... like he sees a "WE" instead of just a RBG and JVH that just happen to know one another... Ion't know...

Tuesday evening, after I got off of work, my cell phone rings... it's RBG like "I wanna come over" I'm all like "R, you gotta go to work at like no o'clock in the AM and I'm off tomorrow..." He's like "I wanna spend some time with you." Wha? You wanna spend some time with me, do ya? That's the VERY first time I heard that come out of his mouth... so anyways, he came over, I cooked dinner (spaghetti, my specialty)... we ate, listened to music, played video games... and talked... like for real talked... and he was telling me that he couldn't see me not being in his life in any capacity, however he feelis like he's not good enough for me... like some straight financial shit... like "I can't take care of you the way I want to"... I asked him how does he know that? It's not about MONEY, cause EVERYBODY is broke out here (I mean, we do live in CLEVELAND, OH the POOREST CITY in the damn COUNTRY)... all he keep saying was "You don't need me"...

So... it's about you being NEEDED is it? Just because I pay all my own bills and drive a cheap ass '07 Focus I don't need you? No, I don't need any money from you, but what about other stuff I might NEED from you? Like the shit that we already share, dumb ass? Like FREINDSHIP, COMPANIONSHIP, LOVE... don't get me wrong, in a committed relationship, finances are truly important, but that's not the ONLY thing that's important!!!

Okay, I got a little sidetracked... moving on...

That night, he and I of course did the grown up thing... but something was different... I don't know, cause like I said, it could really just be me... it was more passionate... for a man who told me when we first met he didn't like to kiss to kiss me the entire time we were intimate... for somebody who always keeps his feelings to himself, to whisper them in my ear... for a man who has NEVER liked to cuddle to hold onto me the entire night... for him to not want to let me go when the alarm went off for him to go to work.... for him to get to work at 6:30 AM and then call me at noon to say he was leaving because he wanted to be with me... and stay with me the whole day... he went home around midnight Wednesday night... and called 4 times yesterday to just say "hi"...

Like I said... maybe it's just me... cause it really could just be me.... what u think?

J.

Thursday, October 26

Video Of The Day

Stay- Jodeci

I couldn't help it.... I really couldn't... This was my SONG back in the day!

Album Review-- K-Ci-- My Book



Okay.... anybody who has known me for a long time knows that I was the biggest Jodeci fan on the planet... no, I don't think you heard me... I was the biggest jodeci fan on the PLANET... I mean, as a fly ass 17 year old High School Senior, I missed a very important hair appointment just to meet these men... I'm talking needed a touch-up, needed a trim for Senior Pictures hair appointment... I swear to you, it was THAT BAD... I remember getting this dude I was dating to buy me AND my cousin's ticket to their concert in 1995, AND he bought my outfit... and HE DIDN'T EVEN GO... I guess the promise of getting some ass in return was good enough... and he never got the ass... I was a little stinker... lol...

Anyways, I say all of that to say this... I walk into a record store yesterday with RBG (that in itself is another entry, give me a minute, I will get to it) and spotted this... don't know when it was released, hadn't heard one note he sang on this disc, but guess what? Purchased it IMMEDIATELY...

And I'm glad I did.

The disc has an old school "Forever My Lady" type of vibe... and considering, that's my favorite Jodeci disc, I'm a VERY happy camper...

Maybe I'm Old School, but I was really feeling the disc... I've listened to it over and over since I bought it....

My favorite song on the disc at the moment is "Much Too Soon" featuring Aaron Hall, written by and featuring Al B Sure... yeah, I said Al B Sure and Aaron Hall... it's a really pretty love song, and K-Ci actually isn't yelling as much as usual on this disc... maybe that's why I like it so much...

Well, if you are a die-hard Jodeci fan like me, go ahead and grab the disc... it's well worth it...

Tuesday, October 24

Video Of The Day

Justin Timberlake-Rock Your Body

Just cause I LOVE this song... and I'm in a better mood, so I feel like dancing...

All-Time Favorite Songs- Part 1

Since I'm always talking about music, I figured I list all of my favorite songs... they are in no particular order, except for the first three...

"The Beautiful Ones"-- My absolute favorite song in the WORLD!
"Microphone Fiend" Eric B And Rakim
"Triumph" Wu Tang Clan
“Rain”- SWV
“Whispers In Bed”- New Edition
“I Will Always Love You”- Troop
“Baby Be Mine”- Michael Jackson
"I'm Gonna Be" Donell Jones
“Love”- Destiny’s Child
“Helplessly In Love”- New Edition
“Iris”- Goo Goo Dolls-- If you don't know about this song, YOU BETTER ASK SOMEBODY!!
“You Give Good Love”- Whitney Houston
“Soulja's Story”- Tupac
“Strip For You”- R. Kelly
“In The Air Tonight”- Phil Collins
“When Will I See You Smile Again”- BBD
"Ready or Not”- After 7
“Str8 Ballin’”- Tupac
"Signs" Beyonce
"U Make Me Wanna" Usher
"Who Will I Choose" Chris Bender
"Midnight X-Ta-C" Christion
"I Don't Wanna" Jagged Edge
"Always On My Mind" SWV
"Never Lie" Immature
"Show Me" Amerie
"Be Happy" Mary J Blige
"How Do I Say" Usher
"Shiver" Maroon 5
"Thank You In Advance" Boyz II Men
"My Girl" The Temptations
"Shame On A Nigga" Wu Tang Clan
"Almost Doesn't Count" Brandy
"Angel Of Mine" Monica
"Anything goes" Christion
"Infatueighties" Musiq
"Mary Go Round" Musiq
"I Think That I Should Be" Mista
"Do Your Thing" 7 Mile
"Let It Snow" Boyz II Men
"What You Tryin To Do" Jagged Edge
"Sympathetic Character" Alanis Morrisette
"Sleep To Dream" Fiona Apple

I'm sure there's more... but I'm trying to work right now, so maybe later...

J

Monday, October 23

Video Of The Day

Mary J. Blige - Take Me As I Am

Because... at this point, I'm tired of compromising ME to please HIM...

Saturday, October 21

Video Of The Day

Usher - U Got It Bad

Yeah, I got it bad...

Friday, October 20

The Question Of... You?



So... I've been on some straight self doubting shit the last few days... leaving me to ask the question- "Is this REALLY worth all this headache?"

I was talking to my cousin Safire yesterday... she had been reading my blog ... as soon as I answer the phone with my normal "What up Cuz?" she says to me "So you fuckin with Dick again, huh? Boy I tell you, you gone learn"...

During our conversation, she pointed out quite a few things to me... like he and I, almost 6 years since our first hello, have been through everything... everything freindships go through, everything relationships go through... and for him to come at me THIS TIME thinking I am going to just accept the same old bullshit is not only stupid, but selfish and arrogant. Like, I'm going to love him on the same terms from the last 5 years, HIS terms, when this should be a 50/50 type deal... her exact words were "That nicca shoulda showed up at your door on one knee with the biggest diamond he could afford because at this point, the only thing ya'll haven't been to each other is husband and wife"...

Which is funny, cause in May 2005, he and I bartended a mutual friend of ours wedding reception... we were so in sync with each other and knew and anticipated the other's every move, that we never bumped each other, we heard everything the other's customer's were ordering and if it was near us, we handed it off without question... I mean, we had that bar on lock.... the groom's aunt asked us, with the most serious face, "So, how long have you two been married?"... I was so stunned, but the answer that came out without a second thought was "4 years". She then said "You two are the most perfect couple I've seen in a long time. Keep up the good work." All he did was smile... and called me "Wifey" for the rest of the day.

The next day, we (he and I, his brother and his wife, the newlyweds, and another 3 couples) left to go on a "Lover's Retreat" in the Poconos. Even though he acted lightweight shitty on the trip, everybody kept asking "How long have you been married?". I finally got tired of the charade, and would tell people that we weren't... we would get the strangest looks... we even played this game at one of the events where it was like the Newlywed Game, where they asked questions while the other person was out of the room... and we got all the answers right... Like they asked me "Where was the strangest place you've ever had sex?" and I gave my answer... when they asked him what I had said, he says "In the basement bathroom at my brother's house during a party." Which was right. I mean, come ON, how many people remember shit like that? Especially if you CLAIM you don't really care about that person all like that... I'm just saying...

All of the things he and I have shared, the ups and downs, the arguments, the laughs... might explain why to this day I can't let go...

J

Video Of The Day

Method Man-All I Need ft. Mary J Blige

I'm really kinda feeling this song right now...

Song Of The Day

Amerie- Show Me
All I Have- (c) 2002

We were never suppose to go this far for real
Now I see it all so clear
My holding back from you
Just making me want you with me
And now
Now, were getting oh so close
And wanting everyday

A little more
Of

Each other's touch
What we waiting for
See, whenever I lay down to sleep
Thoughts are swimmin constantly
And I can't deny
The love for you I feel
And whenever

I tell you I gotta go
My heart starts to feel the pain
Wondering when will I

See you again
I can't pretend
I'm feeling like letting you

Feeling like letting you love me (Love me)
Feeling like giving you my heart
Show me all the love that you're feelin
I'll show you all the love that I'm feelin (Give me your love)
The love that I'm feelin
Feeling like letting you love me
Feeling like giving you my heart (yeah, yeah)
Show me all the love that you're feelin
I'll show you all the love that I'm feelin'
The love that I'm feeling, love

I'm tryna think of one good reason for me to stay away
Thinking of the time

I spend with you on my mind
It's so hard to be afraid
And whenever I tell you I gotta go
My heart starts to feel the pain
And I wonder when will I
I need to see you again, yeah

Feeling like letting you love me (oh)
Feeling like giving you my heart (my heart)
Show me all the love that you're feelin (Show me all the love)
I'll show you all the love that I'm feelin
The love that I'm feelin
Feeling like letting you love me (hey hey)
Feeling like giving you my heart (oh no)
Show me all the love that you're feelin
I'll show you all the love that I'm feelin (yeah)
The love that I'm feelin, love

When you touch me
Show me your love
The love that you feel
The love that I feel
The love that we feel, oh
Your so special baby, yeah
The love that you feel
The love that I feel
The love that we feel, oh

Feeling like letting you love me (oh, yeah)
Feel like giving you my heart
Show me all the love that you're feelin (Show me)
Show you all the love that I'm feelin (Give me, give me)
The love that I'm feelin (Show me)
Feeling like letting you love me (Yeah, yeah)
Feel like giving you my heart (Yeah, yeah)
Show me all the love that you're feelin (Love that I'm feeling)
I'll show you all the love that I'm feelin (Love that you feel)
The love that I'm feelin

Give me one good reason
To stay away
Stay away...

Thursday, October 19

Video Of The Day

112 - Cupid

Dedicated to you... RBG II

The Song That Speaks Volumes To Me



I heard this song this morning on the radio on my way to work... and it made me cry, because this is EXACTLY what I'm feeling...

Love Changes- Mother's Finest

You stay awake half the night
Love is just put you through changes
It must be love that’s on your mind
You’re doin’ things you wouldn’t before, oh...

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside
Love will make you oh, so sad
Make you cry

Oh...changes
That’s what love puts you through
Changes
That’s what love makes one do

Wonder if it’s real this time
Or just another half-goodbye
You walk around starry eyed
Can’t believe that love would hurt again, oh...love

Love will make you oh, so happy (Oh, so happy)
Inside
Love will make you oh, so sad (Oh, so sad)
Make you cry

Changes
That’s what love puts you through
Changes
Oh, what love makes one do

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside
Love will make you oh, so sad
Make you cry

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside
Love will make you oh, so sad (Oh, so sad)
Make you cry (Ooh, yes, it will)
(If you’ve ever been in love you know what I mean)

Love will make you oh, so happy
Inside...

(c) 1978

Monday, October 16



A Soundtrack To Heartache: The Tale of Dick And Jess... not Dick and Jane....

Aight... this is a LONG entry, so bear with me people…

As you might have noticed while reading my blog, music is a really big part of my existance. I associate everything that I do with music. The kind of mood I'm in determines what I'm listening to at that point in time... Happy, feel-good moods require feel good hip-hop-- Ludacris, Nelly (yeah, he's corny, but he's a happy corny), some Dip Set, maybe some Wu Tang Clan.... Mellow moods require some neo-soul like Jill Scott, Erykah Badu, Dwele.... Angry, bitter bitch moods call for some heavy hitting alternative and metal (yeah, I said metal) like Fiona Apple, P.O.D, Korn, Disturbed... and then there are those mushy lovey-dovey moods...

Okay, here's the skinny folks... beginning in 2002, February 22nd to be exact, I began a sort of ritual... seeing as though music is basically my life (how I'm not in the music business I have no idea), I relate to alot of songs. In that respect, alot of songs remind me of a time and or person. On that fateful day in 2002, I sat in front of my computer and compiled a CD of 18 love songs that reminded me of Dick... explained my feelings for him in a way I could not, in a way only the music could... I titled the compilation "Confessions" (and, even though I'm a HUGE fan, it had nada to do with Usher, since his "Confessions" was not released until 2004) because, in a sense, I was confessing to him feelings that I had held inside for close to a year at that point... check the track listing:

Confessions
02/22/2002:
This Is My Heart-- Boyz II Men
Butterflyz- Alicia Keys
I Care 4 U- Aaliyah
Knock Me Off My Feet- Donell Jones
Pouring Like Rain- Chris Bender
Steal Away- Mary J Blige
All I Really Want- R. Kelly
Ready For love- india.arie
Settle For My Love- Musiq
Never Been- Mary J Blige
Joy- Blackstreet
The Sweetest Thing- Lauryn Hill
Think Of You- Case
Tender Love- Force MDs
Sweet Love- 112
I Think That I Should Be- Mista (What ya'll know about that there?)
Just Me And You- Tony Toni Tone

Phew.... typing that made my head spin.... As you can see, I am that quintessential hopeless romantic, but I digress…Keep in mind though, that isn't the only one... it is the 1st in what is now a series of four...

Confessions II (his personal favorite)
05/03/2003

You- Monifah
La La- Lucy Pearl
Tell Me- Groove Theory
I Don’t Wanna- Aaliyah
Show Me- Amerie
Cupid- 112
Say Yes- Floetry
Time Will Reveal- DeBarge
Halfcrazy- Musiq
You- Brian McKnight
My Heart Belongs To You- Jodeci
I Gotta Be- Jagged Edge
Deep- Blackstreet
Complete- Vivian Green
It’s Whatever- Aaliyah (yeah, I know, you see a lot of Aaliyah… I like her!)
Don’t Go- Dreamboy (that’s STRAIGHT old school)
That’s Why I Love You- Boyz II Men
Soon- Christion


I know, I’m bombarding you with music right now… I’m listing all of these songs for a reason…

Confessions III- A Journey Back (compiled 11/05/2003) is a compilation of Old School R&B love songs… stuff that was released in the late 70’s, Early 80’s… I know all the songs, but the titles and even some of the artists’ names escape me, so I’m not going to list the tracks on this one… It’s along the same vane as Confessions II, just with the old school vibe, because I thought that was live. We got some Con Funk Shun on there, some Anita Baker… it’s a really good one though…

Which brings me to the latest installment in the series…

I hadn’t made him a CD since 2003. I guess I wasn’t inspired to do so, even though he and I had never lost contact. The other day, I was sitting in front of said computer, and the inspiration hit me… like I had something to prove to him, like he needed to know that my feelings for him have not changed… but DAMN, I cannot wait for him to get his mind right and make a fucking decision… I’m SO over the back and forth shit… it’s like my grandmother would say “Shit or get off the pot”…. hence our newest addition…

Confessions IV- Revisited
10/15/2006

Love Of My Life- Erykah Badu
I Should Be- Dru Hill
If You Love Me- Mint Condition
Are You Lonely For Me- Rude Boys (Cleveland OH’s own! REPRESENT!)
(Lay Your Head On My) Pillow- Tony Toni Tone
For Real- Amel Larriuex
Slow Dance- R Kelly and Public Announcement
There You Go- Johnny Gill
Rush Over—Me’Shell N’degeocello
I Love You- Keith Wahington and Chante Moore (could it have been said any clearer?)
Diary- Alicia Keys
I Don’t Wanna- Jagged Edge
I’d Die Without You- PM Dawn (yeah, it was a little over the top, but at this point, what do I have to lose?)
Broken Hearted- Brandy and Wanya Morris of Boyz II Men
Heartbroken- Aaliyah (I did say I liked her, right?)
Since I Lost My Baby- Luther Vandross


Now… here’s my explaination…

Whenever I’m feeling all lost and confused or hurt behind the Tale of Dick And Jess, I grab one or all of these CDs, lay in my bed, and put on my headphones… blocking out the rest of existence… because for at least the 80 minutes on the CD I’m listening to, I relive all of those good feelings, all of the fun we’ve had, all of the laughs and tough times we’ve shared… not thinking about all the other shit, like the almost baby momma drama, like his sometime nonchalant attitude about what’s the deal between us two… I think about the fact that I KNOW he loves me…. He’s just too fucking STUBBORN to let go… and I don’t know why I can’t let go of him... because I cannot let go…

No matter what goes on in my life, no matter who I’m with, no matter anything, I still find myself in a position where I’m wanting and waiting for his love… not just love, HIS LOVE…

Maybe I’m a fool.
J.

Tuesday, October 3

All about me... again.

1) Full Name: Jessica Vanessa Valentine-Huston
2) Name Backwards: notsuh-enitnelav assenav acissej
3) Were you named after anyone? Female version of my dad… his name is Jesse
4) Does your name mean anything? Hebrew for Wealthy
5) Nick Name(s): Jess, Jessi, Face
6) Screen Name(s):Baybeegyrl or Miss Jessi
7) Date Of Birth: 08/05/1975 (Leo)
8) Place of Birth: St Lukes Hospital
9) Nationality: U.S.
10) Current Location: Cleveland, OH
11) Sign: Queen Leo The Lion
12) Religion: Methodist
13) Height: 5′ 4.5″
14) Skin color: Caramel
15) Shoe Size: 9
16) Hair color: Black, with a few strands of grey
17) Eye color: Brown
18) What do you look like? A light skinned black girl?
19) Innie or Outie? Innie
20) Right, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Right makes might
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Straight as a rod
22) Best friend(s): Angie, Cheri, Desiree
23) Best friend you trust the most: Desiree
24) Best friends {your sex}: I just told you
25) Best friends of the opposite sex: probably Major, Richard
26) Best Bud(s): Dammit see above
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Unhappily Single
28) Crush: Usher… oh, and Allen Iverson
29) Parent(s): Yes, have those
30) Worst Enemy: Ignorant People
31) Favourite on-line Guy(s): Anyone who’s funny or intelligent
32) Favourite on-line Girl(s): See above
33) Funniest friend: Me (comes from talking to myself)
34) Craziest friend: Desiree
35) Advice Friend: Cheri
36) Loudest Friend: Desiree
37) Person you cry with: All of them

Do You Have…
38) Any sisters: Yes, 1 (half but what’s the difference)
39) Any brothers: 3 (2 whole, one half)
40) Any pets: Not unless you count my mom’s dog…
41) A Disease: Type 2 Diabetes?
42) A Pager: nah
43) A Personal phone line: Yes
44) A Cell phone: Yes.
45) A Lava lamp: Yes. Needs a bulb though
46) A Pool or hot tub: No and No.
47) A Car: 2007 Ford Focus

Describe Your…
48) Personality: Intelligent, thoughtful, funny and laid back.
49) Driving: fast as hell like most women
50) Car or one you want: 2006 Mustang convertible or 2006 Yukon Denali
51) Room: Mine
53) School: Life
4) Bed: Queen
55) Relationship with your parent(s): Pretty decent, as long as we don’t live together
56) What’s Missing? Love
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yes
59) Sleep in PJs: No
60) Get Along with your parents: See #55
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Not intentionally
62) Pray: Yes.
63) Believe in reincarnation: Yes
64) Like to make fun of people: Only stupid ones
65) Like to talk on the phone: Yes
66) Like to eat: Yea67) Like to drive: Yes
68) Get motion sickness: Only when trying to read while moving
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: Yes.
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: No
71) Dream in color: Usually
72) Type with your fingers on home row: More often than not
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: Not since college

What Is…
74) Right next to you: Cubicle walls
75) On the walls of your room: Ugly Ecru White paint
76) On your mouse pad: Dust
77) Your dream car: See 50
78) Your dream date: A good one
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Cabo San Lucas
80) Your dream husband/wife: Someone beautiful all around, someone who can be my best friend as well as my lover
81) Your bedtime: Whenever I get sleepy.
82) Under your bed: Shoes and maybe some dust
83) The single most important question: What is true love?
84) Your bad time of the day: When I wake up
85) Your worst fear(s): Betrayal
86) The weather you like: Spring
87) The time? 10:03 AM
88) The date? October 3, 2006
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: I don’t remember
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: I don't think it's weird, but my friends do... Pecan Pie
91) Theme Song: at the moment… “Get Me Bodied” by Beyonce
92) The hardest thing about growing up: Realizing I could only depend on myself.
93) Your funniest experience: Rather not put that on the internet….
94) Your scariest moment: Car accident in 2001 that almost killed me
95) The silliest thing you’ve done: today? Nothing… yet
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you’ve done to get the attention of the opposite sex? Did what they asked and not what they needed.
97) The scariest thing that’s ever happened while with your friend(s):Not enough time to explain it
98) The best feeling in the world: Love
99) The worst feeling in the world: Loving someone who doesn't love you back
100) 3 people you tag: Anyone who like me is too lazy to come up with an idea.